To Worried Parents of LGBTQ Children

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I write today to Christian parents of LGBTQ children who are worried about their kids. Struggling with this whole thing. From a Mom’s heart to yours.

Easter is the day Christians celebrate new life in a risen Savior. It’s a day to think about crucifixion and resurrection. What God is calling us to do versus what we want. It’s a day of new beginnings.

My favorite memories of Easter as a child are the Easter baskets (of course!), the matching dresses with my older sister (a tradition the younger one loves and the older one dreads!), and the patent leather shoes and white gloves (not kidding!).

Every bit as fun as the actual baskets on Easter morning is the search to find the baskets because Easter bunny hid them! I don’t remember personally finding them (I was the youngest of six until my brother came along) but the hunt was always a thrill.

One particular year we were searching for the baskets and suddenly my mother asked me to go outside to get the newspaper. What?? Right now? We’re right in the middle of the hunt!

I dragged myself outside, grabbed the paper, and headed back in. Then I saw them. In the front window behind the living room drapes were the baskets. I bounded in the door: “I found the baskets!” Mom had a big smile on her face. Even though the bunny had put the baskets there, Mom knew—and she’d sent me out so I’d find them!

I thought that going out in the middle of the hunt was the wrong move. I thought I knew, but Mom knew. Mom had something better for me than searching in vain for the baskets. Her plan led me directly to them.

So here’s the point. I have met so many parents in turmoil because their children have come out. They feel lost, their head is spinning and they are in despair. They don’t see how this could possibly lead any of them to a peace and joy beyond their understanding, and actually deepen and strengthen their faith.

But it does–if you take the journey.

I am asking you to step outside as Mom asked me that Easter morning. Really. Step outside of your box. What? Right now? But they can’t be gay/bi/trans–I have raised them in the church.

I know. But you will not find life inside among the chaos where everyone else is frantically looking. You need to step outside and get a new perspective. God knows how to lead you in this, my friends. God calls you to love, and let the answers come when they come. You know that magnificent God you sing about and learn about and talk about every Sunday? That God really has got this.

If you can quiet your spirit, you will hear that still small voice saying, Shh… just go where I lead you. No need to be afraid—your child is fine. There’s a journey ahead, and you can trust me. I got it. I will crucify your understanding and resurrect new love, beautiful and free.

Before you even realize it, you will find yourself more in love with your family, and more in love with God, than you ever dreamed possible. It’s counterintuitive, but then crucifixions and resurrections usually are.

Give up searching in the usual places, open the door, and go outside. God will give you everything you need.

As Jesus says, Just follow me.

FreedHearts has a comprehensive online video course for parents of LGBTQ children. We also have private, secret Facebook support groups for Moms, and one for Dads. If you would like more information on this, just CLICK HERE.

*Image is original art work by Parker Cunningham

Would Unconditional Love Change Things?


It’s women’s gymnastics time again! It is my favorite Olympic event, of all time, period. I feel the adrenaline as I watch them. Those young women perform skills so hard they shouldn’t be possible! They work years to develop their ability–and they make it look easy!

Consider the balance beam: the commentator says the gymnast’s boldness is the difference between winning and losing.

The more she attacks and goes for each skill, the less likely she is to fall off the beam.

A missed trick could literally break her neck, leave her paralyzed. But she cannot hesitate. No second-guessing. No thinking! Straightup attack. Go for it!

Counterintuitive, isn’t it?

Honestly, we live the opposite. The more that’s at risk, the more we hesitate. The scarier the endeavor, the more we weigh our options. The higher the stakes, the more we pause to analyze.

What ridiculously impossible challenges would give way if we attacked our lives the way these gymnasts—or other Olympic athletes—attack their sport? What would happen if we just go for it?

I’m reminded of one of my favorite quotes, from Mary Oliver: “Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?”

I recently spoke to a young gay man whose parents are crazy-legalistic. His parents don’t plan on his leaving home until he marries. A woman. Uh, that’s not in his future. How can he balance his life, and face the homophobic teaching he’s been subjected to, unless he attacks it with strength and power? He’s worried about upsetting his mother, and he will have a hard time being fearless.

Every day, I interact with parents trying to balance their church’s approval with embracing their child. That hesitation can knock them off their game–and be deadly to their precious child.

Not every idea is a good one, of course. Ideas–like deciding to change your child, or employ “tough love” (and by tough love I mean bullying and ultimately abandonment)–have proven to be an epic fail and should be rejected for good.

But when we find our groove, a groove that produces life–as unconditional love does–what if we went for it full-force? What if those of us who are loving well–without condition, without hesitation–really knew that failure in love is not an option?

How would people around us, in our family, change if they knew we loved them unconditionally?

How would we change if we knew we were unconditionally loved?

People need to be loved. LGBTQ people. Parents caught in a tough place. People of color. Old people. Young people. A word of hope or encouragement. When the time comes to love, in action, we cannot hesitate or we stand to fall. Hard.

Love never fails. Love grows more mature over time. Love as it steeps brings out its full intensity.

Whole vistas are opening in front of us, new chapters are just ahead.

Are we ready to boldly go for it?

We have programs for parents of LGBTQ children, helping free hearts to unconditionally love, accept and affirm.  Private support groups, books, resources and a new FreedHearts Online comprehensive video course. If you would like more information, please click here.

It’s Baaack! The Nightmare of Ex-Gay Reparative Therapy


So-called “reparative therapy” is in the news again! Yippee! Nevermind that those who have been through it report the horrific abuse involved, the lifelong scars sustained, the devastating self-loathing that results.

Don’t worry that the medical and psychiatric community has decried it as not only failed as a practice that doesn’t deliver the hope-for result of a changed orientation–that should be reason enough to put it to rest–but it’s also loaded with deadly side effects. Depression, self-loathing, suicide.

How out-to-lunch, out of touch, and plain-out hateful do you have to be to continue to think this is a good idea? How selfish, obtuse, blind and cruel does one have to be?

  • This country is not a giant family where “father knows best,” and can impose whatever standard he wants for his children, and hope they don’t take off in the middle of the night.
  • This country is not a giant church where the “people in charge” are going to make Christians out of you, whether you like it or not.
  • This country is not a place to trample over anybody in your way to make your name in politics.

Or is it?

Frankly, I cast a wary eye at the whole political process. But wrong is wrong, and no matter where we stand, we have a responsibility to call out wrong when we see it.

And stirring up fear of gays has been part of ultra conservative politics for decades, causing untold damage. And now, this. Again.

So-called “reparative” or “conversion therapy” is wrong. Period.

If you are unfamiliar with it, I’ll tell you just a little about it. This “therapy” is a desperate attempt to “stamp out” homosexuality, and it will use whatever techniques it can come up with.

One of the original and largest leaders of this nightmare, Exodus International, shut down years ago, and its founder Alan Chambers, has apologized for the decades of horrible damage and harm this “therapy” caused to thousands.


Real people, that I have talked to, in person, have told me horror stories…

  • Using opposite gender pornography to “stimulate heterosexual attraction.”
  • Bringing in prostitutes to “stimulate heterosexual attraction.”
  • Electric shock to the genitals to “stop same-sex attraction.”

Okay, let’s stop right there.

Absolute insanity.

What kind of kool-aid does someone have to drink to pretend this is okay? Or to go even further and actually promote it??

The blinding part is this does NOT change orientation! It never has. It never will. It has and always will be a fraud.

As we know, many people will do anything for power and profit and victory. There are stories of anti-LGBTQ policies and programs for political gain throughout the country And we are now exporting these toxic LGBTQ policies to unsuspecting countries. [Also here and here.]

The fraud of ex-gay “reparative/conversion therapy” has had immeasurable, damaging, devastating impact on the lives of countless LGBTQ people.

And now it’s back.

This is a human disaster waiting to happen.

Please. No more.

For more information and resources, go to Faith in America.

A Letter from Susan

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In our post yesterday, we reminded you of our new FreedHearts website. I sure hope you visit us.

I wanted to write a personal letter here on our WordPress blog – just to share my heart, my vision and my hope.

If you are in the evangelical church, or if you are in the LGBTQ community, you know that the church today is fractured. Parents love their children to the ends of the earth—God created them that way—but their trusted leaders tell them to distance themselves from their LGBTQ children. This shreds a parent’s heart—if you’re a parent who has been there, you understand.

Or perhaps you are gay, lesbian, bisexual, transgender, queer or questioning, and you have been called unspeakable names and told God condemns you. If you are in that community, you likely know exactly what I’m talking about.

Or you may simply be a Christian who is heavy-hearted that the church’s treatment of the LGBTQ community is so, so far from the heart of Christ, as they push people away from God instead of drawing them in.

I started FreedHearts for these exact reasons. When our oldest daughter first came out, our family began a journey of discovery—to find out what the Bible really says and does not say, to listen for God’s heart for us and our daughter. God kept moving us forward—toward love, toward freedom, toward peace. Then our youngest daughter came out as well—for two children out of five! My husband Rob and I were grateful we had embraced this path and heard God’s voice through all of it.

Here’s the short list of what we discovered:

  • The conservative church needs help to learn to love in the world. LGBTQ people have been bullied, shamed, abandoned and from the teachings the conservative church considers “loving,” and they need to learn a better way.
  • The conservative church doesn’t know how to love parents well who have LGBTQ children, and they don’t know how to embrace LGBTQ people without a “secret” hope for change.
  • Theology is not nearly as “clear cut” as many Christians believe. As we studied, we were shocked at what we discovered.
  • We all need to listen for God’s voice and trust God’s ability to speak to us.

So I began the FreedHearts blog. I believed that if I could begin to address the issues theologically as well as from the heart of God’s love, I could help change the conversation. I did not know how gaping the need was out there and how much of an impact I would make. I only followed where God led me.

And I have fallen more in love—with God, my husband, my children, and people in general—than ever before.

Now, I have become the voice for parents of LGBTQ children, I get emails every day from parents and LGBTQ people alike, telling me that my posts or talks or books saved their lives. It is at once humbling and thrilling.

I invite you to visit our new website (HERE), my books, and my online school—all created to help you find your way. Be sure to subscribe so you don’t miss anything as we continue to bring you quality content and new offerings to help you on your journey.

With love,


NEW Website, Books and Resources!

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Jesus Blog: Let Your True Colors Come Out

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This is a special Jesus Blog post for National Coming Out Day! Please grasp the heart of this message, but please keep yourself safe. You know your situation. Do not do anything rash that could put you (or your situation) in danger. If you are in that kind of circumstance, but feel like it is time to come out, seek wisdom and help from others so you are not alone. – Susan

More today from my Saturday “Jesus Blog” – a word from Jesus to you…

How beautiful life would be if everyone would just let their true colors come out and live as they were created.

How boring and off-track life is when everyone is trying to fit in, trying to ‘please God’ and each other — taking all the gorgeous color out of life and settling for grays.

That is not God’s way.

You are imperfectly perfect. You are loved by God – without condition. The Spirit of God is inside you.

I invite you to live with these truths deep in your heart and mind.

Will you ‘come out’ – come out as just you?  Let go of whatever labels people and the world put on you, and just be you, just be.

You will be called names like heretic, apostate, reprobate, universalist – so was I.

You will also be called names like treasure, blessing, whole, complete – these are just some of the loving names God calls you.

There is great freedom in letting go of the expectations of others – your family, your church, especially yourself.

Let the grays turn into the beautiful, true colors of the real you.

Dear Susan: Are Gays God’s Second-Best?

Dear-Susan_whiteToo many in the non-affirming church say this type of thing… Gays are just born ‘broken’, a result of sin, family curse, tendencies that are not ‘God’s ideal.’  Gays can’t help it – but they need to be ‘fixed.’

People have no idea how deeply offensive this is and how contrary to the truth and teachings of Jesus, and the heart of God.

Many believe those things because it is how they have been taught, it is what they have heard on Sunday mornings for decades. They are just running a program in their heads. But maybe it’s time to spread the truth so these kinds of beliefs, these kinds of comments are no longer acceptable or excusable.

One of my readers has heard all these things too. It’s a common question, and I look forward to answering it today.

I write Dear Susan posts every Friday. Sometimes they will be poignant, sometimes thought-provoking, sometimes tender, sometimes funny… but hopefully always worth the read.  :-)

Dear Susan:

I have been asked this question about my gay son, which I find offensive, but I don’t know what to say. Help me!

I’m told that being born gay is a bit like being born with a disability like Down Syndrome. It’s part of the ‘condition of sin’ and isn’t God’s ideal, but we accept people with disabilities and so we should accept gay people too.  (Not sure if I worded it correctly but that’s what I heard.)

Does this mean that gays are somehow God’s second-best?

In my heart I feel that can’t be right but I don’t know how to counter it. Any ideas?

Faithful Reader

Dear Faithful Reader:

I think this is a great question, which I had to work through when my daughter first came out.

To see Down Syndrome as a result of the fall, however gingerly we say it, is  patronizing! It is judging something as being deficient instead of just being.

The closest I find is when Jesus is presented with the blind man, and is asked if that was his own sin or his parents’ sin. Jesus said it was no one’s sin, but to reveal God more clearly.

Of course being blind or having Down Syndrome has more challenges than we can imagine, no doubt about it. But if we take Jesus as his word, it is not the result of sin or a fallen world as we have been taught.

And what good does it do us to even go there anyway?

All I see is it allowing us to sit a little more above others as we have determined that their particular issue is not really God’s best… I see no beauty there but only an excuse to eat from the Tree of Knowledge as WE determine what is God’s best.

As I wrote about my brother Paul, his physical and mental challenges served our family in amazing ways, as he kept us grounded on the basic important things in life. Joy. Laughter. Love. I imagine parents of those with Down Syndrome feel the same way about them.

I firmly believe that LGBTQ people bring a profound blessing as we who follow Jesus are challenged to love as Jesus loves – to put up or shut up… (to be perfectly blunt!).

We say we love. We were told to love. We were shown how to love. And yet we don’t love.

That’s the bigger issue than parsing up what is sin and what’s not. That’s what Jesus told us and modeled.

The truth is that no one is “God’s Second Best” because no one is “God’s Best” – we are who we are, we are how we were created, we are a child of God, perfect in our imperfection, and we have God’s spirit inside us.

Maybe instead of “no one is God’s best” – a better thing to say would be “We are ALL God’s best!”